Written when I was a health coach.
I am Darshana.
The first thing I want to tell you is that I am NOT a nutritionist, food
coach or Registered Dietian. I have NO title when it comes to do with food.
Yes, I have been a women's health coach for the last 18 years. I taught
cooking classes, educated women about whole foods, gave health food
store tours and all that stuff about food BUT, this is gonna sound harsh,
I don't care what you eat.
I mean, I do, but that is not my mission or what we are up to in the food
For me food has been the thorn in my side and the biggest gift in my life.
You see if I had not realized that I could use food, or rather my relationship
to food as a door way into my spiritual life, I would still be eating boxes
of cereal, baking brownies or cookies and eating the whole batch in one
sitting. I think I might have been on prescription drugs to manage my digestive
and mental health. I bet I would of still been sneaking food, holding food at
buffet events, binging like crazy and then starving myself or exercising
like crazy. Every January I would still be bargaining with the spirits that
this year I swear I would stick to my diet, I would be dieting like crazy before
bikini season or before my college reunion.
You get the point?
What I am trying to say is I would still be hooked into main stream
culture and messaging that I was not enough exactly the way I am and
I would keep trying to be something that I am not. I would keep trying to
have a body I was not meant to have and I would be trying over and over
and over again to fit into what the magazines say instead of fitting into the
skin I live in.
But 18 years ago I got off that train and instead I realized that my crazy
making, abusive, oppressive, obsession with food was the exact vehicle
that could help me KNOW myself.
As I turned TOWARD my relationship to food and all the fucked up ways
I treated myself. Yes I just used the F word, I could answer a deeper calling
I had, to have freedom from food obsession.
I wanted to be free from my impulsive and mindless behaviors with food.
I wanted to be free from feeling like a slave to what the world told me what
to eat, look like and behave like and instead learn to listen to myself.
What I really got in touch with as I opened the door to food being my
spiritual path was that I was being suffercated by oppression.
I was an oppressed woman.
I am not saying I am a victim, but let's face it ladies, women have been
oppressed for centuries, and being told what to eat and how to look
are two of the main ways women oppression continues to get played
out in the world.
So every time you think a thought that you are (fill in the blank with
a not so nice thing you say to yourself), or every time you look at a
magazine or other woman and compare yourself or every time you beat
yourself up for not sticking to your food plan, stop for a minute and say...
OH this (may be) part of the oppression.
All of these ways I hurt myself I just wanted to run away. I had a fantasy of
moving to an ashram (well, I did the for awhile). I just wanted to escape
my life. But, no I had to face myself and it was in the moment that I
realized that FOOD was my practice. It was my yoga mat, my meditation cushion.
And it has taught be more about myself than, well almost, anything.
It's important for me to say that this is not one of these programs where
I just use my own personal story to help inspire you. I have been a
student of yoga, meditation, psychology and personal growth for
18+ years. You can read about my credentials HERE but heres what
I want you to know....
I used the teachings I have been so blessed to receive from my many
spiritual teachers and I applied them to every bite I took, every glance in
the mirror, every trip to the health food store, every restaurant I went to,
every time I got on the scale (or stopped getting on the scale). I applied
those tools to the thoughts I had about myself, when it came to food and
my body and I became liberated from emotional eating.
And yes its true I not longer obsess about food, in the same way.
Does it still haunt me? Not much, but yes, it creeps in. But thats the nature
of the mind, my friend.
It's not what the mind does. It's what YOU do with your mind that makes
the biggest changes in your self.
So what I want you to know is that as important as it is to find food that
nourishes your body and keeps you healthy, I am here to guide you to
feed your soul.
If you would like to partake in the food freedom programs.
CLICK HERE for more details.
Feed your Soul. Nourish your Body.